I’ve noticed you know. I’ve seen the way you look at me. The raised eyebrows and rolling eyes, the side comments and the laughs at my expense. The children have noticed you know, the way they don’t seem welcome, the way they are treated a bit differently, the comments you make. It’s ok though you can say what you like because we’re just living our best life.
Who do I think I am? Sharing my life on the internet, writing a blog like I’m someone that actually has something to say…do I really think anyone is even the slightest bit interested? It’s a joke isn’t it? How dare I try to make something of myself or try to do something a bit different? Did you know I’ve even started making videos?! Who do I think I am…a youtube star or something? Ha ha…what a ridiculous idea! I know that’s what your thinking, we all do, we all feel it. But it’s ok though, you can think what you like because we’re just living our best life.
But do you know what? I’ll tell you who I think I am. I’m someone who has experienced pain, I’ve known never ending love and deep hate. I’ve understood jealousy and resentment and pride and happiness all in equal measure. I’ve felt rejection and hurt, excitement and jubilation. I know what it’s like to feel lost and alone even in a group of friends and I know how to show real anger. I shout and scream and laugh and cry. In fact I’m just like everyone else. We all have a story to tell, we all have experiences to share and that’s why I do what I do. I don’t pretend to be an expert at anything, quite the opposite I am more than aware that I have always been pretty average at everything I do, but I am trying. I am simply living my best life.
We’re all out there in the world trying to make a living, working hard to do something that makes us happy, something that makes those that are closest to us proud. I have no clue where this journey is going, what opportunities this blog is going to bring and I’m not sure I really care. I am just happy to be doing something I love. I am well aware that people look at youtubers and bloggers and think they’ve got it easy. I thought it myself, all they do is wave a camera around all day or write about some stuff they’ve bought and they earn a fortune! It’s not until you start that you realise the hard work and dedication it takes and how much of your life you have to give up to be just a little bit successful. They’re all just living their best life.
So I just thought I’d let you know it’s OK. You don’t have to like what I do, you don’t have to read my posts or watch my videos. To be honest I never expected anyone to and the fact that there are a few people out there that like what I do is enough for me. So no need for the negative remarks and the sideways glances, we know how you feel, but it’s ok because we’re going to carry on living our best life.